I have not knit in a week. Last Monday someone close to me made some pretty upsetting remarks. It was along the lines of my craft not being worth putting effort into. It brought my parenting into question. My priorities. My talent. My work ethic.
In the course of a 5 minute phone call I was torn down. It made me sad. It made me think maybe they were right. The start of the school year is always hard for me. The summers are my favorite time of year. I love spending long lazy days with my kids. School brings new challenges, volunteer hours, homework, extracurricular classes and activities. It also brings my seasonal depression. If I had had the same conversation in July I probably would have laughed it off and moved on, but it happened to hit at a time when I was already struggling. So, after a week of wallowing and second guessing myself, I have decided to move on. I am going to keep knitting. Stopping isn't an option for me. When I talked to my grandmother about my feelings she pretty much laughed at me. Her view was that God has given me a talent. Why would I let someone's opinion change my course? When the world hit's you remember to bring it to God. I'm not exactly feeling inspired, but I am going to start charting a new pattern tonight. It's a start. If God has given you a gift or a passion for something don't let other people take it away from you. There will be times when words hurt your heat. There will be people who second guess you. If you are happy, your family is cared for, you are fulfilling your responsibilities then forget them. Keep knitting. Keep your head up. If you need encouragement or prayer I am always happy to listen.
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Teri
9/23/2019 06:28:31 pm
Thinking of you. Praying for your hurt heart. I love your grandmother’s words to you. Simple, true, and powerful. Keep on keeping on. You are making a positive difference in the world; not all of us can say that about ourselves. I don’t even knit, and I follow you on IG. I admire your chutzpah, for lack of a better word. I have often thought, “Gee, I wish I didn’t care what others thought about me, like Deplorable Knitter.” But, of course, you care. Silly me. I’m praying for your soft heart that you’re putting out there anyway. I’m proud of you, inspired by you. Just thought you’d like to hear something positive. ❤️ I’m @heymrss on IG. 😊
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I'm so sorry to hear about this. I think we can all relate. Although I haven't been in exactly the same circumstances, I have had my craft/art belittled, I've been depressed by seasonal (and other) changes. In the 11 years since I started knitting, I have taken one week off (to paint my basement), until this year. With the changes in the online knitting climate, days go by when I don't even want to think about it. I went through mourning. Yes, there are bigger problems in the world, but art/knitting lifts up our mental health, especially in this era of too much busy-ness, not enough community. I hope you find some peace. God has better things for you, but don't beat yourself up for falling off the path, it happens to the best of us!
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Sue
9/24/2019 08:03:36 am
Oh, the blessed wisdom of a grandma! Sometimes people are merely jealous of others who have a passion and have their priorities (family) in order? Also, you're aware that our enemy knows when we are weakest - soldier on, knitter!
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Teri
9/24/2019 01:31:24 pm
Listen lady, you are an inspiration, and brave and strong. Please google the chart "who I am in Christ." I will just say that you are valued by, you are precious to and you are loved by an Almighty God! I am lifting you up in prayer. Remember, he takes our ashes and gives us beauty.
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Mary
9/25/2019 08:00:21 pm
I'm sorry this happened to you. I really enjoy your work and by putting yourself out there you are doing more than most people do. Stay strong!
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Jane
9/27/2019 01:57:19 pm
Your words and your Grandmother's words are a timely balm to me.Thankyou for posting this.
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