I have not knit in a week. Last Monday someone close to me made some pretty upsetting remarks. It was along the lines of my craft not being worth putting effort into. It brought my parenting into question. My priorities. My talent. My work ethic.
In the course of a 5 minute phone call I was torn down. It made me sad. It made me think maybe they were right. The start of the school year is always hard for me. The summers are my favorite time of year. I love spending long lazy days with my kids. School brings new challenges, volunteer hours, homework, extracurricular classes and activities. It also brings my seasonal depression. If I had had the same conversation in July I probably would have laughed it off and moved on, but it happened to hit at a time when I was already struggling. So, after a week of wallowing and second guessing myself, I have decided to move on. I am going to keep knitting. Stopping isn't an option for me. When I talked to my grandmother about my feelings she pretty much laughed at me. Her view was that God has given me a talent. Why would I let someone's opinion change my course? When the world hit's you remember to bring it to God. I'm not exactly feeling inspired, but I am going to start charting a new pattern tonight. It's a start. If God has given you a gift or a passion for something don't let other people take it away from you. There will be times when words hurt your heat. There will be people who second guess you. If you are happy, your family is cared for, you are fulfilling your responsibilities then forget them. Keep knitting. Keep your head up. If you need encouragement or prayer I am always happy to listen.
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School finally started here. Now that my house has calmed down and cleared out I am having trouble focusing on my knitting. I've never been one for spring cleaning, but fall cleaning I can get behind. I like the quiet portions of the day. I like the opportunity to go through our stuff and get donations ready. It's nice to get things in order in anticipation of the cooler weather. Since I have been working on stuff on my house I have not been nearly as focused on my knitting as I should be. I did finish a hat a couple of weeks ago, and my testers just finished working on it this week. So, even though I haven't been focused on my knitting I still have a new pattern to offer to you. I am pretty excited about this one. It's a lovely hat that supports the President. There is even a new (to me) technique in this pattern. Three colors in one row! I love the way it looks, and I hope you do to. The house should be back in order next week. Then, I am hunkering in and planning a lot more patterns. Coming soon will be God Bless America, and some designs in support of the military. If you have a person in the service or discharged from a branch and would like to test please let me know. I would love to have some knitters making military hats that you will be able to be put straight to use! https://www.etsy.com/listing/720940070/trump-toque?ref=shop_home_active_1
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